• jamarapathy

When Life Gives You Lemons...

Geezers, lets be honest. Life is never what we expect it to be. I’ll be the first in line with both my hands up to admit this. Life always has its challenges. Take me for example. Life has thrown so many things my way; from losing friends whom I never thought I would lose to almost driving my Uncle’s car into a river. The worst bit is I am only 19.

Life has been sending curves at me for as long as I can remember, but there is only one thing I can do about it. Just get on with my life, fix the damage it has caused - whether it be mental or physical. It might take a while but that is alright because that’s normal and you can’t change it, but I can’t stress how important this is. Its an important part of the recovery process.

Lets jump back to August 2020, when face masks were mandatory, pubs were closed and clothing was optional (we were all stuck inside, after all). I was expecting my A-Level results, it was meant to be a day where there were no bad memories. Spoiler alert; all I remember is how I got sucker punched.

I remember, I was excited to receive my results, I was sat on the couch with my mom next to me. At 9 o’clock, I checked online for my results. I didn’t get what I wanted. I cried, I swore and I was ready to quit. I was rejected from university, and I could not bare to show my face at school to pick up the paper with the grades I already knew I had. It wasn’t the end of the world but I felt like it was.

I puckered up, wiped my face clean. Got in the car and got to school. It still blew my mind, but I knew I had to get on with it. I was pissed off. It took a lot, seeing others happy and I was just there. I picked that piece of paper up, got back into the car and went home.

I could have easily moped around all day, no one would have blamed me for anything. I could have easily given up, my plan was in shatters. I could have easily done just about anything, and no one would have said anything. My mom was by my side, in awe. She didn’t know what to say, so she just kept quiet.

At 12pm, I was fed up of being a mess. I needed to reset everything. So that’s what I did. It started with a shower and a hot meal. Little did I know that was the start of the best decision of my life. After giving myself the break I needed, I started calling all the universities around me, I was adamant to find a place at university, or even do something else like maybe join the Navy or the Army. The fire inside me was burning brighter than ever before.

I knew that was not the end and I honestly wanted to end the day on a positive note. I have always been a relatively smart person, and when I applied to study Law at my university at 9pm, they called me at 9:15pm and after a 10min chat they offered me a place.

I was happy, I got a place at a different university with my history of hard work. It seemed like everything was right in the world again. More than anything I didn’t have to wake up at 5am for the drills in the Navy, I was free to sleep in, and have long hair.

I wasn’t happy with the grades I received, I was far from it and I was ready riot with the thousands of other frustrated students. I felt bad as I know some of them were not in position I was in. I wasn’t able to sleep that night or the night after but I was in a better place than I would have been if I decided against fixing the damage. I needed to reset everything

The next day, there were many riots. The exam boards took that as a sign and gave everyone a different set of grades. It took mine grades up but somehow that pissed me off more. What I realised was that I can’t change it, the only thing I can change is how I reacted to it.

I’d say I reacted well. Studying Law at my university was the best decision I ever made. I’ve made friends for life, and I am enjoying my time at this university.

Life throws many challenges your way, what defines the moment is how you react and what you do to overcome it. Lets take step the step in the correct direction. Geezers, we got this.

Jason.A X

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